Right Now

Today has been an emotionally blah day. Multiple times today I cried out to God. I so badly want to meet my children. I so badly want to move beyond waiting for a referral; we’ve been waiting for over a year.  Since we started this process, I have watched several families complete their adoptions, are now matched for another. I’m so thrilled for them, but to be honest I have a little bit of “that’s not fair”.

While I know in my head that He is in control and that His timing is perfect, today I don’t want to have to wait anymore.

Ken took Jacob & I out to lunch today. He had some great stuff happen at work & we went to celebrate at a local Chinese buffet. I shared with him my blah feeling and how I’ve been crying out to God today. After the meal I opened my fortune cookie and I had to laugh. God is so funny. Now, please know that I do not give much credence to fortune cookies, but I believe God used it to tell me what I needed to hear. While it was not the message I wanted, I had to say, “Ok God, I hear you loud and clear”. The message was, “Right now you need to be patient”.